You are back, ah Death, You have returned. (Herman F. Allen)
One of our World War II heroes died this week. I knew he was a highly decorated veteran but to be honest I didn’t understand the entire story.
Now I’ve learned more. He was there. The Big Red One. Landed on Omaha Beach in the first wave of the D-Day invasion of Normandy. Wounded in the Battle of the Bulge. Saw the liberation of a Nazi concentration camp.
After the war, our hero lived a life of commitment and dedication to his family, his communities, the American Legion and the Disabled Veterans of American. United Way, Elks, Rotary. The greatest of the greatest generation.
Near the end of his days, I am told, he was haunted with the memories of battles that just would not go away.
As I am haunted by this poem written by my Dad, Herman Allen. I can’t shake it. Herman was never in the infantry but obviously early on he was obsessed with the nightmares of war. He wrote this in the early years of the war, before he became part of his B-17 crew.
The Return
I was lying there
When you passed
Me by the first time.
The mud was in my hair
And a bullet in my thigh.
The ditch was cold,
Water oozed through my clothes;
I did not cry
Only grimaced with pain,
For the night was short
And I knew you would return.
I was alone amongst those
Whom you had touched.
How better they fared than I!
At least they could not think
Or dream, or curse.
The fanfare of battle
Did not mock their ears,
The flash of guns blind their eyes.
They didn’t know
The pangs of thirst, of hunger,
The want of sleep.
Theirs was rest and solitude.
Alone they lie, yet together;
Alone they sleep,
Yet in quiet company.
But now you are back,
I can see your shadow on my blouse,
I can feel your touch on my fevered brow,
Your breath on my upturned face.
You are back, ah Death,
You have returned.
Herman Allen, early 1940's
Dedicated to this hero who will be buried at Arlington National Cemetery in 2011. We can never honor our veterans enough.
Bobby Lee Silliman
Posted at 22:24h, 25 MarchDear Pat DiGeorge,
This poem is such a vivid reminder of how vulnerable we all are and it gives your father’s insights as to what he percieved death would be like.
I am very pleased to have found this page as I have an upcoming event in Carlsbad, New Mexico later this summer to pay tribute to my fallen brother Jack Lloyd Silliman who was killed in Viet Nam. Family and friends of Jack will be gathering to pay tribute and honor him at the newly created Carlsbad Veterans Memorial Park. Jack was one of twelve men from Carlsbad that made the ultimate sacrifice in that asian conflict.
I will be putting together a tribute speech and I truly think that some of your father’s writings and poems could be woven into some of the things I desire to express when it is my turn to share.
May I have permission to quote some of Herman F. Allen’s penned thoughts?
His having walked the same ground ( Carlsbad, New Mexico) as my brother Jack did ( Jack was in the Civil Air Patrol and spent many hours in the old WW2 built hangars and on the runways from the old Carlsbad Army Air Field). Our Father was a pilot and a certified aircraft mechanic and was employed for several years by Mc Causland Aviation in Carlsbad.
On July 17th and 18th we will assemble in Carlsbad and give Jack the honor and our heartfelt thoughts that are his due.
Best regards and I hope your reply will be yes to my request.
Bobby Lee Silliman
Pat
Posted at 06:53h, 26 MarchYes, Bobby, please use his poems for your brother’s tribute. Our Dad would be honored to imagine that his words written so many years ago would have such an impact. THANKS, Pat